I want to be in a relationship without even trying. I want it so badly... Lately, I feel like I'm losing my mind; seeing couples makes me feel like I'm dying of loneliness.

Why are college students dating instead of studying? Couples everywhere on the streets, couples everywhere in the theaters—it's annoying. I'm even starting to feel jealous of my own parents.

Where is everyone dating? Where do they even meet people? Even if I did meet someone, they'd have to actually like me back.

I want to hold a man's hand. What would it be like? How would it feel? I want to touch his face, his body, and... down there, too...

I can't tell if I want a relationship because of my libido or because I'm lonely. I think I'm actually going crazy.

I know that for someone like me to meet a handsome, fit guy, I'd either have to be incredibly lucky or the guy would have to be mentally ill. It just wouldn't happen. I know my place.

Then there's Lee Dong-woo, who returned to school a few months ago. Maybe it's because the other guys in CS are so subpar.

Isn't he basically perfect?

Pretty hands, decent face, and no friends. Am I being too mean? I probably am...

After thinking about it over and over, I've reached the point where I genuinely like him. I want to talk to him. What if he rejects me?

Still... Still... Someone like me could...