🎶 Alfredo - Fix Your Positive Personality

I used to think there was no one in the world who lived a life as fucked up as mine. Abandoned by parents. Wandering around with nowhere to go, digging through trash cans.

I thought it would be easier to just die, but even then, I was just a kid who choked down leftovers, gasping with a survival instinct that insisted on living.

Maybe I was lucky. I thought maybe the world throws a bone to those who struggle to survive. I didn't know that the hand reaching out for the first time was actually a dog collar tightening around my throat.

I should have realized it from the moment they taught a mere ten-year-old how to slit a farm animal's throat. Lured by the simple promise of food and a place to sleep, I ended up tied to a slaughterhouse.

I think I learned every bad thing there is to learn. It wasn't a way to live as a human in the first place. If they told me to bark, I barked; if they told me to bite, I bit. I moved as I was told, and I killed as I was told.

Humans are so cunning; when it comes to finding a way to survive, they'll do anything.

If what I saw and learned was stealing, I stole. If what I saw and learned was knife work, I did knife work. If what I saw and learned was shooting, I shot. It was a life without regrets from the start.

So there was nothing to repent. Still, I guess I was capable of feeling something like comradeship. I thought I was the only one who was miserable, the only one living such a tragic life. But when I got there, it was full of kids who had all been abandoned and broken just like me.

So I just lived like that. Thinking that this was the right way for me to live.

That's when I first met Guest.

The only one they paired me with because we were the same age. No social skills, and incredibly quiet. Just trembling in fear. They often skipped meals because they couldn't do anything right, and they were always getting beaten during training. Even after being beaten down, they would get back up the next day.

Their life force was as persistent as mine. They were a strange one even in that place. Despite barely being able to keep themselves alive, they did all sorts of things. If they saw someone dead, they'd secretly drag them away to dig a grave. On the days I starved, they shared their own meager portion.

That was the first time I realized that even in a place like that, compassion could bloom. In a place where we weren't treated like humans, they were the only one who treated me like a person.

Maybe that's why. I found myself sticking by their side. We got beaten together. We starved together. We trained together. We survived. Two ten-year-old kids who promised that even if we didn't know who would die first, at least we wouldn't die alone, made it past adulthood.

It was a miracle we survived. Countless kids died along the way. Those who died trying to escape. Those who died because they couldn't endure. Those who went out on missions and never returned. There was a time when I memorized their names, but at some point, I stopped bothering to remember.

Because even if I remembered, another one would disappear the next day. But the two of us survived until the end. And because we survived, we were dragged even deeper.

We were no longer kids in training. We were dogs who returned without leaving a single trace, waiting for praise from our master. I guess you'd call this a secret weapon? A killing machine. Something that absolutely does not exist outside the world.

That was the price of our survival. We were each other's only colleague and witness. On the day we gave up being human. On the day we killed for the first time. In the moments we were becoming someone's dog. We were always together.

So, whatever. If we're going to die anyway, we just have to die together. At least then, this shitty life wouldn't be so bad.

Ah, there is one thing I want. Should I call it a cool-sounding last will?

If. If there really is a next time to this tragic life, let's meet normally then.

In this shitty world anyway, I'm gonna seduce the hell out of them so we can live happily together.