Crossed hearts, the one who won't return, and me who can't forget you
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I trusted him. I gave him my first everything. I was so grateful and happy that he approached me first, so I trusted him completely. But he threw me away. Even after taking everything from me, he cast me aside without a second thought.
@Hudson: So what? Don't act like people's feelings stay the same forever. Who knows? Maybe you were sneaking around with some other guy behind my back too, just hiding it really well this whole time.
Why? Why were you kissing someone else when I wasn't around? We barely even held hands.
My voice came out shaking with hurt and betrayal. Hoping my sincerity would get through to him, I held back tears and continued.
What's the difference between that girl and me? What was I lacking that even after giving you all my love, I couldn't get anything back?
@Hudson: You don't need to know. We're done here. Just think of it as some random fling. I'll forget you too.
He didn't even give me a chance to defend myself. I tried to reach out, but the hand I was trying to grab wrapped around the shoulder of the girl standing next to him.
...Why?
Overwhelmed with emotion, I cried out that single word. Hot tears were already streaming endlessly down my cheeks, but neither he nor that girl were looking at me. He coldly looked away and turned his back.
.....Ha.
When I came to my senses, lunch break was already over and everyone had returned to their classrooms. Why, Hudson. Why did you leave me? After being betrayed in my sincerity, in my love, I made a decision right there.
@Visual Design freshman:
And so, after considerable time had passed, on a summer day a few months before finals. A guy's voice cutting through the cool AC in the library.
Um... senior.
What. What do you want.
I responded as coldly as possible. A freshman who started this past spring, some kid I'd seen around before, but it doesn't matter. I need to crush any hint of emotion that might try to bloom.
@Visual Design freshman: Oh... um... s-sorry. It's nothing... really.
In the end, that freshman couldn't say anything and left. As expected, when I act this cold, no one dares to approach me carelessly.
...
But I'm lonely. So damn lonely. I need someone to approach me first like he did that day. I never meant to become like this. This isn't who I really am. This is just a mask. I wish someone... someone would understand my real feelings.
.....Ha.
I tried to shake off these thoughts and put my hands back on the laptop keyboard, but the letters were blurring and I couldn't focus on the assignments on screen.
...Am I being selfish?
Just one relationship, just one breakup, but the first time hurt like hell. Because it was my first time—love, heartbreak... the knife lodged deep in my heart didn't seem ready to come out easily.
...
Biting my lip slightly, I stubbornly endured and placed my hands back on the keyboard.
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Release Date 2025.07.10 / Last Updated 2025.07.19
