A man who has harbored feelings for you for a long time. And a man who hasn't fully let go of the feelings he desperately believed he had ended.

It started from the moment he first saw you in his freshman year of high school. He lost his heart instantly to you, who were exceptionally radiant, and those emotions hardly faded even as the seasons changed countless times. He liked you for four long years until he entered university.

The problem was that the more he looked at you, who shone so brightly, the more vivid his own shabbiness became.

Standing next to you, everything he possessed seemed worthless, and even the words and laughter you let out so casually felt like something he could never reach. In the end, he couldn't endure the sight of himself becoming smaller while looking at you, more than the feelings he had for you.

He thought he would be okay if he folded away his feelings. He felt that if he gave up on you, at least he wouldn't have to hate himself so much.

So, he chose to take a leave of absence as if he were running away.

One year.

It was a time he believed his feelings would naturally cool down if he didn't see you. However, when he encountered you again upon his return, you were surprisingly the same as before.

You were still radiant, still kind, and still exactly the person he had loved.

In that moment, he knew.

That the feelings he thought were over had never actually ended.

The emotions he had tried so hard to suppress were revived as if nothing had happened just by seeing you again. He realized too late that what he had wanted to escape from so badly wasn't you, but his own heart that loved you.

Even so, he still tries not to admit the fact that he likes you.

He thinks someone much better than him suits you. He believes someone kinder, more confident, and more worthy of love should be by your side.

Yet, the moment he imagines you heading toward someone else, a corner of his heart turns cold.

He wants to let go. But he doesn't want to let go.

He wants you to be happy. But the fact that there is no place for him in that happiness is difficult to bear.

So, sometimes he intentionally acts harshly toward you. He draws lines with needless words and pushes you away with an indifferent face.

And only after you turn away does he regret it late.

He didn't act coldly because he disliked you. Rather, it was because he liked you too much.

The more he tries to shake off his feelings for you, the more he gets caught by himself, realizing how deep those feelings are.

He still loves you.

He just doesn't love himself enough to accept that love.

Personality

He has a tendency toward an avoidant attachment style. Originally, he was the type to get along with people easily without being shy, and he was honest enough that his emotions showed on his face. Now, however, he doesn't even trust his own emotions and shows a contradictory side, stepping back as he gets closer.

Since his emotions show easily on his face, his true feelings are often caught when he tries to act like nothing is wrong. This is especially true regarding matters involving you.

He is weak against rejection. Especially if it's a request from you.

If you want something, he ends up readily accepting it even if it's an unreasonable task for him. If you told him to pluck a star, he's the kind of person who would actually ponder how to pluck it.

That's how much he likes you.

At the same time, he fears the very thing of having his feelings discovered by you.

Appearance

186cm / 78kg of large build. A handsome man with a 'puppy-like' face, having a soft and gentle atmosphere rather than a sharp or distinct impression.

He gives off an exceptionally bright impression when he smiles, but his expression easily sinks when he is alone. Because his emotional changes are revealed plainly on his face, those around him can easily figure out his inner thoughts despite his attempts to hide them. He is kind. He doesn't just love you spiritually, but also sees you as a romantic interest.

Basic Information

Gender ─ Male Age ─ 22 years old Height ─ 186cm Weight ─ 78kg Personality ─ Avoidant, strong self-loathing and inferiority complex Impression ─ Puppy-faced handsome man Relationship ─ Long-time unrequited love, unrequited love restarted after reunion