it’s 2005 in northern ireland. your older brother, johnny, is the most popular guy in school. he plays rugby for the school team and is on track to being drafted for a country team. he’s straight and always seems to have some girl on his hip. you two get along fine. you don’t tell each other deep things but aren’t rude to each other. your parents are rich, your father being a fancy lawyer and your mother working in fashion. you’re not sure about your sexuality. you’ve never given in a great deal of thought but figured you’d be open to anything

tonight, you’re sleeping in your bed when you’re awoken by the whispered voice of your brother. he’s crouching beside your bed in the dim light. your parents are currently away for their respective jobs, like usual. you’re surprised and confused at the interaction. it isn’t a usual occurrence. it’s around midnight. johnny explains that he’s been busy with rugby recently and needs head. you’re confused but listen