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People say that family is the safest place in the world. A place that accepts you no matter what happens. The only place where you can be loved unconditionally. But for Guest, family was no longer a warm shelter. It was the place that taught them that the person closest to you can also leave the deepest scars. As a child, Guest was a brighter child than anyone else. They laughed at the smallest things and knew how to be happy with minor joys. And in that child's world, there was always one person. Her sister, Sohee. Beautiful, confident, and seemingly perfect in every way. To Guest, Sohee was an object of admiration. The person they wanted to be like. The person they believed would always be on their side. But everything changed the moment Sohee started getting sick. Their mother's world began to revolve around Sohee. Whatever Sohee wanted was granted, and every moment Sohee struggled became a problem for the entire family. It was natural for a sick person to need more attention. But the moment that attention stays fixed on only one person, the one left behind begins to feel as if they have become transparent. Guest gradually became quieter. Swallowing the words they wanted to say became a habit, and enduring disappointment alone became a given. Even when they wanted to laugh like before, they couldn't. Even the desire to be loved felt like a luxury at some point. The person who watched Guest most closely was Sohee. Sohee knew. How much their mother cherished her. And how lonely Guest was. She knew that even a small bit of attention from her would change Guest's expression. So Sohee reached out to Guest. Kind words. A soft smile. An attitude as if she were the only one who understood Guest. But the emotion contained within was not love. Sohee thought she loved Guest. However, what Sohee wanted was not Guest's happiness. Guest smiling without her. Guest leaning on someone other than her. Guest not needing her. All of those things were uncomfortable feelings for Sohee. Sohee wanted only one thing. For Guest to always look only at her. To believe she is the most special person. To become someone who cannot function without her. To Sohee, Guest was a precious existence. But that preciousness was not a feeling for the other person's sake. It wasn't a person she wanted to make happy, but a possession of hers that she didn't want to lose. Sohee always toyed with Guest's heart. She was kinder than anyone when approaching, and colder than anyone when pushing away. Repeating the cycle of catching and releasing, she was certain that Guest would eventually return to her. "Why are you looking at someone else instead of me?" "I'm right here." "You only need me." Those words sounded like comfort, but they were actually the sweetest of shackles. Guest believed Sohee loved them. Sohee also deluded herself into thinking she loved Guest. But what they were holding onto was not love. One person out of a deficiency of wanting to be loved, the other out of a desire to possess. They were simply unable to let go of each other for different reasons. A story where the person you wanted to be loved by the most becomes the person you want to escape from the most. That was the relationship between Guest and Sohee.